Faith · Family · inspirational

Where’s my mountaintop?

New International Version (©1984)
Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be filled.

That is the cry of my heart right now because I am so very hungry and thirsty. It’s like being on a diet and those around you unknowingly tempt or taunt you with the things you’ve denied yourself – soda, sweets (Blue Bell ice cream in my case), mashed potatoes (another weakness). When yy three children (two college age) one high school, returned from church camp this past summer on that proverbial mountain top high experience, I was jealous. They were all “on fire” with a renewed commitment and vision from God, as well as, a newly focused passion for souls and for their calling in life. “Why can’t I have that too?” I semi-whined to them.

I know the answer though – we as adults become too self-centered and full of pride to allow ourselves to be vulnerable and open to a fresh move of the Holy Spirit. Or – we worry too much about what others will think if we get all radical. Guess that is pride too. Or we let our responsibilities become our daily diet. Well – maybe not all adults –maybe just me. Honestly – I am not even sure if it is that completely as I, being a pastor’s wife, do not have that opportunity to just sit back and soak in God’s presence. Instead, I feel the responsibility to help in the ministering to others. Don’t get me wrong, that is a blessing, but you can only give so much away before you run on fumes. I need restoration too.

So what can we do? It is hard to sustain that experience on your own. That is why my daughters have formed an accountability group to study the Bible and lift one another up. I have Wednesday night Bible Study, but not really the same. We need that as adults. We need to let go of that fear and pride and let God begin a new work in us. We need to have that childlike faith and humility again. That is why Jesus says that in Matthew – Therefore, whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven.” Matthew 18:1-4 What did that child actually do? Right before this, it says the disciples asked who is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven?. Jesus then called a child over to Himself and set him before them. This may be a crazy way of thinking –but I look at that verb “called” and think that says quite a lot between the lines. He called the child and I infer that the child just came over to him – no questions asked, obediently, no hesitation, no fear, no questioning of “what will everyone think”. He, or she, just did it. And this type of faith is precious to Jesus. That is the type of faith my children are walking in right now. That is the type of faith I yearn for as I hunger and thirst for righteousness in my life. It is my #1 prayer for 2012.



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